Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Why is self-respect so elusiv?

B called me today. He had some things to say and I listened after I was done being angry and sarcastic with him. Some things about himself. Some things he had learned.

He wanted me to let him prove to him that he can make me happy. So I said okay. And I told him that the only reason I was going to let him continue to try was because I didn't want to make the same mistake with him as I did with X - letting him think things were unfixable when what I really wanted was for him to fix things.

But a couple of hours later, I realize there's another reason: What if nobody else ever loves me?

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