Saturday, May 16, 2009

What have I done?

There's a guy at work. Oh it hurts and shames me to write this. I swore up and down to myself after the last disastrous work-related shenanigans that I would not involve myself with someone I met through work. But this guy. Augh. He completes my unspoken thoughts. He smiles a lot. He's funny and sweet and kind of a goofball. I genuinely like him as a person and there are few people (men, especially) that I meet through work that I can say that about. Anyway, one thing led to another last night and he told me that he likes me. That he's liked me since he started working with me. We don't work at the same company but we work on the same project. It's a large, long-term project. We work together on a limited basis. I'm moving to a different floor soon so it might not be too awkward. Augh.

So, in addition to the complication of work, he has a son. His son is older than 5 but not an adolescent. I don't know what the custody arrangement is but they obviously spend a lot of time together. I do know that the divorce was finalized yesterday. Did you know that you could get an EDivorce?

We were up very late talking... and also "talking". We fell asleep on his couch to the sound of a thunderstorm at sunrise. It was comfortable and comforting. Meanwhile, I am worried about work next week. I'm sure people will notice. They always do. Plus, this guy can't possibly be ready for a relationship but I don't want anything in between. Augh. Why? Where is 516 when I need to be rescued from myself?

4 comments:

Asshat said...

Doesn't sound like a great black sin to me. You don't work for the same companies or even on the same floor. It was comforting and comfortable. Who cares what your coworkers say . . . people will always gossip and you can't do anything to stop it. Why stone yourself over it?

Awkward, for you said...

I agree with Asshat. Honestly I don't think you have anything to worry about. Plus over analyzing and worrying about things you may not even have to worry about is pointless. Life is too short. Live in the moment and don't listen so much to that little voice in the back of your head. ;)

SaneAndSingle said...

It's not like you will have to look at him everyday for years and years if it doesn't work out! Go for it!

geekhiker said...

*sigh* I'm not even going to comment on how long it's been since I've talked, or "talked", with anyone on the couch.

Okay, so you've found a guy you like and you like him back. You work on the same project, but not for the same company, so that clears that obstacle.

I would say roll with it. I remember reading once that the fact that we try to ignore or cancel out workplace romances is kind of silly, since we spend so much of our waking hours AT WORK. If the universe presents you with the opportunity...