Saturday, June 27, 2009

A few months ago, a friend asked me if X was the big love of my life. I was vague with her but no, he was not. I know that. Sometimes I worry that the big love of my life has passed me by. That I'm done loving for this lifetime. That I had it for a moment, but I chased it away, or it eluded me, and now it's gone forever. Or The One didn't share the feeling. What happens if The One doesn't also think you're The One? I am so lonely but I have grown used to the lonely. Not entirely comfortable with it but now it's such a fact of life that I can't imagine my life without this feeling.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I know exactly how you feel...but hang in there! I'm trying too. You know what they say, love will come calling when you least expect it. But if you're anything like me, patience is wearing thin lol.