Sunday, April 12, 2009

What is wrong with me?

I didn't do much yesterday. Went to brunch with the girls and got groceries. Then I lazed about on the couch all afternoon. I think maybe because I didn't get home til 4.30 am after going out with the girls. Well, they weren't my girls. And there were boys there. One of them drives a 500 series BMW but he was drunk and I wasn't (I'm a lightweight - get drunk fast, sober up fast) so I got to drive it. It was freakin' awesome. At this moment, I am prepared to trade sex forever for a lifetime of driving a car like that. Sigh...

Today, I slept until 2 pm. 2 pm!!! I haven't done that for years. Maybe decades even. I don't know. The most productive thing I did all day was wax both of my legs. Usually I only wax one at a time because I get frustrated and bored. Today I got so tired from the waxing that both my legs were shaking. It was weird. Maybe my body is fighting something off because I'm tired and it's not even 11 pm. Maybe I'm just depressed. I miss C le V a lot right now but I'm not sure why. Maybe because he's the only person I have connected with on so many levels in many years and the prospect of meeting another man I can really talk to seems so slim.

I answered a craiglist personal this afternoon. I know. Shocking. I've never done that before. At least, not with the intention of meeting someone. We had dinner and it was nice. Not very awkward. And he was cute. Athletic. Opinionated and educated. We split dinner which normally is fine but he had two glasses of wine and a coffee and his meal was more expensive. Sigh. Where are all the decent guys?

Too many maybes and too many sighs. What a cruddy blog entry. What's wrong with me?

2 comments:

geekhiker said...

Ah, a sports-car girl I see. I guess off-roading in the truck would NOT be your cup of tea, eh?

What a bonehead. If he's going to buy over-and-above the dinner, he should cover that. I'm actually, old fashioned I'll admit: I still have the urge to pay for the first date, but I'm still fine with going dutch.

Nothing wrong with you so far as I can tell. Well, 'cept that where you live gets too damn cold in the winter! ;)

Elusive Butterfly said...

Off-roading in the truck is cool too but I get to do that at work. Beamers are special though. Most guys won't let me near their car, regardless of model. I guess it's a macho thing.