Sunday, July 26, 2009
Overworked and unpaid
I want to kill myself. It will all be over soon and I can see the end of it but I don't want to do this anymore. The thing that surprises me most about this period in my life is how little support I seem to be getting from my friends. Maybe I should just ask for help but I have never been very good at that. I just figured that somebody would say, "hey can I bring you some dinner?" or "do you want me to help you run some errands?" but no. Not a single offer of help. Well, that's not true. One of my friends offered to read it but she did an arts degree and MBA so I doubt the damn thing would make any sense to her. I did ask a former coworker to check over my data for me but she said no. I was pretty surprised about that. I guess if you've never done it you have no idea how insane it really is. This is by far the most work I have ever done in my life. I don't think I have ever been this stressed and I have done some things. I know that I'm alone in the Universe so I don't expect to be taken care of. But I'm surprised that nobody has even though to offer some support. So no, I'm not asking anyone for help. I feel very lonely and isolated right now.
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So what can I do to help? My science background isn't so great; when I took biology everyone still was dissecting mastodons and dodos.
Well, I'm having a glass of soy milk for dinner at 1.55 am so you should probably start with supplementing my grad student diet with solid food! Mastodons and dodos are cool, despite being dead.
Wait, scratch that. What I really need is a massage. My jaw is so tight that my ears are starting to hurt. This is weird for me.
I'm sorry you're going thru so much but at least you're almost done! There's light ahead in your tunnel!! Perhaps your friends don't understand what you're going thru - have they gone thru it before? Perhaps they don't realize you need help - do you voice your needs or keep them bottled up? Just reach out and slap someone... you'll feel better and they'll wake up!
Good luck, btw... I will be in your shoes in a few years.
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