Tuesday, April 13, 2010


I fired my realtor today. At least, I didn't *fire* him. I lied about my reasons for not seeing more places for the next couple of weeks. He has slipped a few times already and we have only been working together for 10 days. I don't intend to continue working with him. It's sorta like dating, I guess. I just want it to be over but I don't have the balls for the unpleasant honesty.

So there's a week gone in the quest to be not homeless. It feels like a setback but that's because I'm impatient and unhappy, unsettled and frustrated and lonely. I miss my shoes. And my bed. My pillow and sheets and kitchen utensils and did I already mention my shoes?

It's not really a setback though. I learned quite a few things. But I realize that I am officially a high-maintenance first-time home buyer. And I'm completely overwhelmed at the thought of doing this all on my own. MFV says I can talk to him but I can't. He's too busy at work to email me back and it's too late in the evening for us to have a reasonable conversation by the time he's home and has had dinner. I am tired and sad. I want him to move here so we can be together but I'm too scared to hope for that.

Fortunately work is an escape, though not having enough to do makes the time pass slowly. I think I have enough to do tomorrow that it should go by faster. And I think I'm going to get a new phone. I'm going to try out the iPhone for two weeks and if I can't handle the touch screen, the store manager will let me switch to the Blackberry. Many people tell me that I will never leave the iPhone once I get used to it. So I guess I have a date with my new iPhone tomorrow night. That, at least, feels like progress. I do need a new phone and, considering how much I am paying for just minutes now, I might as well get some fun stuff out of it.


BeautifulSadist said...

I was skeptical of the iPhone (and I'm an employee of the service provider), then I tried it. Now I love it. I can't imagine how I lived without it!

(The Blackberry phones are all really nice, too)

Also, they all come with a 30 day exchange period, so if you want it longer than 15 days, you're good.

G in Berlin said...

Have you told MFV how much you would like him to come? It makes you vulnerable, but on the other hand, what do you have to lose (but a bit of dignity, which is nothing next to an improved chance at happiness). Unless you think it would stress him?
Don't hurry to buy- if you think your life could change. Renting for a year while you think about what you want is always an option. I just moved for the (gah) third time here in Berlin and I am finally very happy with my apartment. Although moving was a hassle, it was truly worth it.

Shadowdog said...

I think every first time home buyer is high maintenance. And if you're not, you're gonna get screwed pretty hard. So I'd stick with that if I were you. The first instinct is usually the best.